Just Four Letters in a Row?

There's a song that says, "You say love is just a word, just four letters in a row..." 
I know that I've thought of it that way before. It's a word to mean 'I like you more than a friend.' I see it used all over facebook and sometimes I just have to shake my head because it's used so simply. 

I was talking to my dad the other night, having a "guy-talk", and I was telling him about some confusion on crushing on a guy. He asks me, "What do you mean by crushing?" and I said, " Well, I mean, I miss them when they're not around and wish they were." He gave me one of those fatherly looks that says, "I love you, but you have a lot to learn." lol He told me, "That is not a crush, that's just liking having someone around." What? That's what I have always thought crushing was- wanting them around you a lot. Well, you could imagine how clearly, but at the same time more confusing, that made everything inside.


That talk brought on an all too familiar small voice inside my head. The small voice told me, "The love you're looking for is found between a guy and a girl. That love is great, but here you are looking for love and it's right smack in front of your face!" What a pep-talk. 


My search for a boyfriend/future mate hasn't really been something I've let God all the way in on. I've always had the girlfriends to talk things over with and make it all clear out, but I don't necessarily have that luxury here. You know how it's easier to talk to someone face to face? That's a big thing for me is being able to see their face. God is now having to take the place of that girlfriend. He should have had that place all along, but now it's something I'm going to really need.


I won't know what love is until I embrace the love that's in front of me. Love is not simple, but I don't think it's hard either. People just see it wrong; it's used too simply or as a complication. In reality, the world doesn't need any more exaggeration. 



                            One of the girls.........
                                         Taylyr

I'm A What??

Light. A golden ray of sunshine. The small warm spot on the floor.
What ever you call the sun it basically means the same idea.
God. Holy of Holies. Creator of earth.
What ever you call Him it basically refers to the same person.
It's funny how the sun can be put in a story as an example to describe God. Not following, right?
We've all had our moments where we're sitting in a sanctuary, the person talking is boring us to death, our eyes dart around looking for something more interesting.
I had one of my moments a few weeks ago.
My eyes scanning what seemed to be every inch of that sanctuary just waiting for the thing or person I knew would eventually draw my attention. I scanned the front of the sanctuary, my eyes running over a stain-glass window.
At the moment I looked at it a bright ray of light made the window light up and grasp a whole new appearance!
Well, my jaw didn't drop but God told me a rather interesting tid-bit about myself that I certainly did not know. He said, "You are a window."
Ummmm what? Did you just seriously tell me I'm a window?
Yeah, He did.
I understood exactly what He meant. What He told me sunk in and it all flooded in.
When God shines His light through us we take on a very different appearance than when people just take one look at us. We have all these different "colours", different gifts, talents, qualities that God uses to make the light He puts in us shine all the more brighter.
How do you think a ray of sunshine would come out through a window of all grey?

I am Taylyr Jane Davis and I was specially crafted by God and placed into the world and church to shine and bring glory to God! Wow, there are a lot of 'buts' in there. lol


                                            One of the girls........
                                                    Taylyr Jane

I Won't Settle For Less. Part 2

I re-looked at my list of future husband/spouse qualities & realized that I didn't put some of the qualities I put down! lol
Here are the ones I didn't put down:

• Leadership.
• Humble.
• Doesn't have to prove everything to everyone.
• Loves to serve people.
• Tall.
• Supports me.
• Wants to learn about me.
• Will make an effort to learn about me.
• Flexible in planning.

There ya go! :)

                    One of the girls...............
                                    Taylyr

I Won't Settle For Less.

This is my personal list of traits I came up with for my future boyfriend/spouse.
I went through some deep questioning of myself and into some deep thought to find some of these.
I guess i've thought about it before, but on a more "surface" level.
So, here is my list :) :

• He needs to be so enveloped in God that I have to go through God to get to him.
• Likes to notice little things and enjoyes them.
• Loves to laugh.
• Knows when to be serious and when to be funny.
• Simple-ish lol
• Comfortable with himself.
• Will fight for me.
• Expressive. (at least a lil)
• Clean.
• Needs to know how to LISTEN!
• Not afraid of hard work.
• Has at least a temporary goal for life/job.
• HONEST.
• Thoughtful.
• Athletic.
• Thinks before he speaks or does.
• Loves his family.
• Does not take offense easily.
• Strong; emotionally and physically.
• Awesomely random. :))
• Would put God before me always.
• Optimistic.
• Laid back.
• Likes to try to make everyday things fun.
• Is dependant on God before anything/one else.
• Can stand up to me. <----------Hahahahahahahaha!!!
• Not fearful.
• Soft hearted.
• Wise.
• Discerning.
• Affectionate.
• Needs to be the one God has held for me, can't be anyone else!!!
• Does not try to be perfect.
• Needs to CARE!
• Needs to be PURE!
• Loves kids!
• CREATIVE.
• Does not sugar coat everything.

Well, there's a lil piece of my heart for you. :) I wonder a lot who this mystery man is. Have I met him? Will he be someone I least expect now? When will I know it's him?
It's been a while since i've looked so deep inside of me & have let myself just be honest without scolding myself when I point out something I think my be impossible. I let myself truly dream.

Truly dreaming is when you don't give yourself boundaries and you just let yourself imagine in pure hopefullness. I've got to let myself do that more often. *dreamy sigh* :)

                         One of the girls...............
                                        Taylyr <33

Tyler.

God seems to put a lot of "Special Ed" people in my life.

Those people who's words just get slurred together and are frustrated when you have to ask them to repeat what they say constantly. The first "Special Ed" kid, I remember, to be my friend was a guy named Tyler. I was, at the time, in fourth grade and was in the middle of 'I don't want to hurt his feelings and say no' and 'I actually enjoy hanging around him'. There were days to where I wanted to be around him and enjoyed the "special games" he would make up for us. However, there where also days where I wanted to say no, but didn't have the heart to.

I remember one day I wanted to play with the girls that were in my class so I hoped through lunch that Tyler wouldn't be there. I was disappointed to hear him call my name as I was headed to the monkey bars. Turning around with a smile plastered on my face I saw him running towards me beaming like everyday. Taking the piece of paper he was clutching and opening it up he showed me a paper covered with colourful lines and scribbles with pictures in the corners.

Holding it up he told me that he had created a treasure map that would lead to his "treasure". Following him all over the playground this way and that we were supposedly following the scribbles and lines. Peering at my other friends I had a secret envy for them that made me feel guilty. When we stopped he dropped to his knees and started digging. Getting down on my knees I waited. Out of the hole he brought out a small quartz. Handling it like it was the most precious thing in the world he showed me every side describing the rock.

He smiled widely and handed me the quartz and said to me in his slurred voice, "I want you to have it."

As a fourth grader I didn't see.

The first day I told him no a few weeks later his smile was gone and he went back inside and stayed there the rest of the day. I look back and feel sad and sometimes bad that I didn't see the ministry in Tyler. That I didn't see his love.

We don't see a lot when we envy or are blinded by endless wishing.

One of the girls....
                 Taylyr

What If?

How do you explain something that you don't understand yourself?
The mysteries of the thing in my skull commonly know as a "brain". A brain.
Dear brain,
Why do you make yourself so complicated?
Sincerely,
The BodyYou know there's an unknown reason. The tricky part of that reason is it's mischievous partner. UNKNOWN. (dun dun DUN!)
I wonder if other people get scared  confused when they think about what's ahead. Is there a life of nomadic ministries? What about getting married? Kids?
What is a girl to discover when the world seems so big compared to her little world?
What do you do when you have a special guy friend, that has always been there for you, that doesn't always do what he says he'll do?
Dear special guy friend,
Why is it that when I manage to think I have gotten over you, you finally show up and make my breath quicken?
Love,
The girl
P.S. Make up your mind!! Are you gonna call me or not?!

Dear special guy friend,
Why can't you just answer the question without making my mind race and stay up all night?
Love,
The girlWhy can't I back away and let God make what He wants happen? Well, because I want certain things to happen to me!
Ummm.....I don't remember God being a wish list for the Miss 'I want everything' girl.
Dear God,
You can do what you want with me, but first let me give you the 411 on my opinions.
Your daughter,
The girlUhh no.
I think that we girls want control in something. Anything Maybe not ANYTHING. Do we really want control? If we were in control what would happen?
What if
Us humans can really get caught up in the world of 'What if?'.
Why do we want to base the future on the
God gives us brand new, clean white 'shirts' and then when we look back and bring all the dirt back in! What happens to the brand new white shirt? WHAT A MESS!!!
Why do we make a mess in the first place?
Dear God,
Clean-up on my isle!!
Your daughter,
The girlSigh.
One of the girls,
     Taylyr you did kiss the guy? What if you had just ignored the new kid? What if..........?Also, why does the special guy friend have to keep you "guessing"?

ipod incident.

Oh the things that happen. lol
I was preparing to wrap my friend's birthday present and had asked my grandma for a bag. We went into 'my' room and started with cutting some tissue paper to wrap it in.
Well, I had just been listening to my ipod and had previously set it on my bed. Neither of us had noticed that the tissue paper had been set onto my ipod and while my grandma was cutting the tissue paper she accidentally cut one of the ear phones off!
Sadly, I didn't notice the ipod until she was just about to touch the ear phone and I guess i didn't yell, "STOP!", fast enough. Ooops.
My other ear phone still works fine and doesn't appear to notice the absence of it's partner. :)
It turns out that even thought, at the time, I was a little upset I was more concerned that my grandma knew it wasn't that big of a deal. God turned out using this unexpected accident to teach me patience and to remember what and whom my priorities are set upon.
I find it very exciting when I have a victory like this and can happily say, "Hahaha, Satan!!! I WON!!!!" I think that is a pretty appropriate time to brag a lil. ;)
One of the girls.....
Taylyr